Stress level times 2

I think it is time to retire, this week has gone south with a bullet. Between cell phone problems, computer problems, people problems, and everything else I have had it up pass my eyes.  I have a new cell phone coming but who knows when it will get here, as of now I turn the old one on for a few minutes several times a day to get messages.  That works about as well as a one armed paper hanger.  I can go several days without anything important, and then, BOOM, they want me to go three different directions all at the same time. The computer is acting up can't make entries, and as such the imformation just keeps piling up and someday I will need to spend (waste) a day just doing computer entries.  I had a system that worked well for me, but NO, we need you to use the system we bought so everyone can us it.  That is such a joke!!. It seems that with these days between work, fire department, and everything else coupled with a very sore shoulder and arm, plus a couple of sore feet, which I  don't know why they hurt, my days are becoming one big pain.  I have finally decided to relieve my Prevention person of his responsibilities if he comes up with a place to live inside the area.  One way or the other he is done as of Wednesday.  The guy is okay as a firefighter, but he can't handle his personal life, and he flits for idea to idea and never sticks to anything for very long.  Found some information that he has in fact been living not where he said he was for for longer than he said he was.  I wish he would just move away and solve that problem for me.  At training meeting Thursday, we talked about the low response numbers, and wouldn't you know it, the most talk about that and other people who should join the department came from a guy who makes less than 12% of the calls.    I drives me up the wall when he can set there and run is mouth about people, yet he lives closer than many and you will hardly every see him on a call.  Yet have a meeting where food is served and he is ready to go.  We will see this time, as he will need to report back on what was covered at the meeting this time.  He better take notes or not go.  I lay awake nights thinking about how do I get enough people on the department to insure that we have at least the bare amount of firefighters we need.   Maybe it is time for me to quit, I can't seperate this from anything I do.  I wonder sometimes if anyone cares beside me.  My deputy has procrastinate for almost a year about station maintenance, his low cost fix for the northside snow problem was wiped out in about 15 seconds when the snow came off the roof.  There went about $200 in materials and labor.  I have piles of stuff on my desk that need my attention, yet I am too old to pull all nighters.  My office is cold, I usually work with a sweater and coat on, use to use the little electic heater, but that things sucks juice like a drunken sailor drinks beer.  Bill was up by almost $30 this month and the only thing differnet was that I use it alot last month.  Sleep good for the first time in about a week last night.  Has been about 5-6 hours and then I wake up and my mind starts to go 90mph for the rest of the day.   Have missions stuff to do tonight yet, but have to go away for the evening, so it will get done either late tonight or early tomorrow morning before church.    Hope we don't get a call tonight as I will have no way easy of going on it, even though I will be half a mile from the station.  This week has been so bad, that I find myself starting to snap at my wife.  NO GOOD.  We did have a nice supper out on Valentines day, but since then it has gone down hill.  Hope next week is an improvement.  Almost to the point of telling everyone off.  Not quite, but the thought has crossed my mind.