New Year

As I start a new year, I find myself at a crossroads of sort, I have just a few years to work at my present job, and then I need to find something to do, I can't find retirement in the Bible, my heart for the last few years has  been drawn to Africa, why I don't know.  What I do know is that for most of my life I have lived it for today.  Now, I wonder what will be said about my life when it is over.  What have Idone that amounts to something for eternity.   I see my children and grandchildren for the most part getting wrapped up in getting stuff.  We have the latest gadget, toy or electronic whatever,  and as I look at that  I see, what you pay for that every month would support an african pastor for a month.  My wife and I spent last Thursday evening with a awesome ( I know a very over used word) young lady who is a missionary to Zambia.  I found out about her from a letter she sent to our church.  For some reason I put it aside and keep going back to it. I e-mailed her and a few e-mails later, we had dinner with her.  She will be coming to our church in the fall, and I hope she brings her fiancce with her,  from what we hear and saw they will be a dynamic couple for the Lord.  They excite me, and at the same time make me wonder if I have for the most part wasted my life.   Have I turned a deaf ear to the Holy Spirit for so long that I have missed my chance.