Short on Time & Sleep

This will be a short post.  I had figured it would be a long one, as it is 5:30AM and I have been awake since 4:30AM.  Have a busy day, and a lot to do in the next few days.  Got a bit of good news, the \hurricane on the coast has caused DHS/FEMA to extend by one week the deadline for filing AFG grant requests.  I have one already started, waiting on information to be sent to me to finish, but because of the delayed filing time, I think I will work on a second grant.  Nothing ventured nothing gained.  Will be gone much of next week for a sales conference for the day job.  Get to go to Ohio.  Use to look forward to these, now not so much.  Will have to go like crazy to get ahead, and then the week after go like crazy to catch-up.  Have to take two online tests before I go, and have to read a book as well.   The book is okay, better than most I have read on customer relations, but still think the guy could have said it in about half the pages he took.  I  guess people might bulk at paying $22 dollars for a book of only 100 pages.  Had a new grandson since I last posted.  Everything went well, have two more grand babies due before spring.  That will bring me to 15, and I think I might be done.  Realized that this one may never really know me,  as I think back, I lived in the same house (duplex) with my grandparents.  I tried to remember as much as I could about my grandfather, who was in his 50's and 60's during my growing up years.  He died when I was 16 years old.   I tried to recall events, family gathering, etc.  I think my total recall if written would be hard pressed to fill two pages.  Maybe because my memory is getting old, but I really think that any grandchildren I have, except for maybe two or three will not have very many memories of me, and those under 10 now will have very little tangible memories of me, and will not remember much of our time together.   Decided much of what is on my mind now, and has been for the last few weeks really needs to go in the hidden file.   That is a file in my office that when things are really starting to press and I need a place to vent, I will write out what I feel, what my thoughts are  and be really honest.  BUT, I also know that what I might say, write etc, could cause a lasting hurt.  Usually, that is in fact what brings the letter into being.   Things I would say are of a very personal nature, and most likely should be just as well not said.  BUT, I find it somewhat stress relieving to put on paper what I feel, think, and perceive.  What I usually do is write the letter, usually to the person or persons, telling them just what I think, feel, etc.  Than put it in a miss labeled file in my office.  ( Most likely when I am dead, someone will clean out the draw, and probably just throw the file away as it is such a file that it appears to be unrelated information of a general nature.  Nothing important.  Have several letters in there, many have gone in and many have later been thrown away after the passion of the moment or the event has gone past.  In these cases, if I had said what I thought, felt etc. it would have just made things worse, and probably damaged relationships.  SO, I vent where no one will get hurt.   Usually helps.  Today,  the file will increase by one.   Time to get ready for work.  Have long full day ahead.